Friday, July 13, 2007
anata no koibito wa dare desu ka
Tom yam
My one and only tom
Who is so yammy
How to live
Without you in my life
I would die
Hang myself with a tie
Submit to your seduction
I offer no objection
Nor any rejection
And definitely no contradiction
It is my duty
To spread your beauty
Certainty
Acidity
This is reality
Drown in my fantasy
You are my landed property
Summon to you by your bell
Break through this cell
Crawling all the way from hell
Halfway I fell
Into a well
Who to tell
Should I yell
I am not going to sell
You
Tom yam
My one and only tom
Who is so yammy
To whom I swore my loyalty
To whom I found so attractive
Bow to you my lord
My lord of the tom yam
Hail hail
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Friday, July 13, 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
konban nani o tabemasu ka
"2" : minnasan today is the 6th...
"3" : don't need me to tell you also know...
"1" : its still July in the year 2007.
"3" : hmmm yesterday very risky like this. Almost give me a heart attack.
"2" : yap by the way she behave thought she is going to have a breakdown again.
"1" : and i thought she really going to kill herself.
"2" : maybe we shouldn't make fun of her all the time.
"1" : and should cut down on bullying her too.
"3" : ya that right. She also pity, all alone, no shoulder she can lean on to cry...
"2" : but she got sidekick..thought she would at least call sidekick.
"1" : nah i don't think so. Remember sidekick don't like weak people. Look how she always kept on a smiling face whenever sidekick is around...
"2" : and then cried cried cried when nobody is around...
"3" : like yesterday....
"1" : don't know how she really feel today...think we should cheer her up?
"3" : partly also for our own selfish welfare, better do that.
"2" : i know why don't we cook dinner for her tonight.
"1" & "3" : done!
Am thinking of going to kino, the orchard one this afternoon, during lunch time.
But that one far far, so need to think over first.
Oh someone call me. Let me answer first later then come back k....
5 minutes later....
Hmmmmm.....hmmmmmmmmm...this time its me who got to...hmmmmm...
"3" just called me. Informed me the 3 will be cooking dinner tonight. Ask me to go home early.
Hmmm...let me see....not my birthday (which by the way the 3 has completely forgotten when...actually i forgot about theirs too..so we are even).
Not our anniversary too (hmmm actually when is our anniversary?)...
And then also not any holidays or is there any particular reason to explain this...should i say..unusal phenomena.
Wonder what i have done to deserve such...once again...unusal treatment from the 3.
Don't they always like to make fun of me, bully me, torment me?
Hmmmm....make me feel very curious.
"3" : it's on. She has agreed to come home for dinner.
"2" : alright then i will leave it to the both of you.
"3" : huh...what do you mean?
"1" : ya what do you mean?
"2" : mean i am leaving the cooking part to the both of you.
"3" : of course not! I can't cook!
"1" : me neither!
"2" : hmmmm.....that would mean...
"1" : there won't be any dinner tonight...
"3" : all because we don't know how to cook....
All 3 : hmmmmmmmmmmm...
Meanwhile on the other side of the world...
Oooh am very excited. Wonder what the 3 will cook for me tonight.
Think i will fax them a menu of all my favorite food. Hahaaaa force them to make all the dishes i like.
"2" : hey gals take a look at this.
"3" : what is this list?
"1" : seem to be....her favorite dishes!!
"2" : hmmm...today is not Friday the 13th...
"3" : why didn't we think first before acting?
"1" : reckless...so reckless....
"3" : what to do now?
"2" : i know! We can call for home deliver!
"3" : you are forever the brainiest one!
"1" : er..gals....but we got no money.
"2" & "3" : .........................
No wonder i have been feeling that something is not quite right. Didn't the 3 don't know how to cook? Are they making fun of me again? But doesn't sound like it, "3" does seem sincere. Well that would only leave the last explanation...which is.....they forgot they can't cook.....hmmm...tonight won't have any dinner...hmmmmm.....
All 3 lying spread in their room...
"3" : we are so bad...
"2" : she is down and yet...
"1" : but we didn't mean it...
"3" : doesn't matter. You think sidekick will listen to us for starving her babe.
"2" : talking about sidekick remind me of the dinner she made that day...so....
"1" : ya can still remember the ......
"3" : we should have learn to cook. Then we won't be so....
"2" : talking about food, what happened to the char sao bao and the chicken bao?
"1" : forgot about that one, in the end which bao got extinct?
"3" : i think its char sao bao.
"2" : but i thought she like char sao bao?
"1" : ya heard from her too.
"3" : but recently she kept having chicken bao...beside sidekick also haven't buy any char sao bao for breakfast.
"1" : dun here we are, still got time to talk nonsense when we haven't solve our problem yet.
"2" : but there is no solution. Beside even if we wanted to cook also cannot. The fridge is empty also.
"3" : come to think of it, we are lucky so far. Don't know this time can get away with it a not.
"2" : better dig out our will first, just in case you know...
"1" : you all always like to scare me like this. One day i would really die of heart attack.
"2" : hey one thing, where the hell is higher power.
"3" : seem like higher power is avoiding us recently. Just imagine if we have to depend on higher power...
"1" : we would have been dead thousand times already.
"2" : maybe next time we should use an anonymous..
"1" : provided there is a next time....don't even know can survive today a not...
"3" : gals...even though i seldom...i mean like never said it...you know like...it because...
"1" : don't really know how to express....so like...
"2" : but even if didn't say...i know you all must have know it so...however...in case...
"1" : just in case you all don't know...
"3" : so i should say it this round...once only...
All 3 : i loves you all very much!!!
[embarrassed...embarrassed....embarrassed]
"2" : huh...
"3" : oh...
"1" : so............
Awkward silence.......
"2" : i still prefer char sao bao...
"1" & "3" : me too...
Today a bit busy. Actually also no mood to continue with the project. All because the things is so slow, got fed up. Beside today is Friday so might as well continue on next week. Then still thinking whether want to go there a not. But must go home early to have dinner with the 3. those 3, so troublesome but so cute too. Every time they do silly things like this just couldn't bring myself to reproach them. Oh my dinner my dinner my dinner...hmmmm....my dinner....
[meanwhile the 3 is digging in their room for their wills]
"3" : damn i must have misplace it, can't find!
"1" : me too.
"2" : me three.
"3" [screaming] : where the hell is it!
Just then, even though no thunder and lighting, the temperature didn't drop and also no blazer, but the three could feel a chill spreading up their spine and their hands break out in sweat.
"3" : this feeling is too familiar...
"2" : masaka...
"1" : it's....
"3" : count to three we all turn together...
[all 3 slowly turn around and...no need to be disappointed and no surprise....guarantee delivery!.....sidekick arrived by federal express!!]
All 3 [there is just no word to describe the horror that the 3 is feeling-voice cracking] : kon..ba..wa....
Sidekick : your dinner is on the table.
All 3 : huh?
Sidekick : she called me. You all will be having dinner today right. I have prepare it and its on the table. Don't need to leave any for me i won't be back today.
And then once again, puff just like that, sidekick, gone with the wind.....
[all 3 walk to the kitchen, and as sidekick said, there are quite a lot of packet of foods on the table]
"3" : this is......atoooo.....
"1" : she called sidekick, which mean...
"2" : knew all along we can't...
"3" : hmmm...and to think i always thought she don't care about us...
"2" : but she did care enough to know...
"1" : that we are really reckless youngsters who can't cook....
"2" : i feel so bad...
"1" : so useless...
"3" : so terrible.............
All 3 : hai...we are hopeless.....so....hopeless....
Oooh another fifteen minutes and it's time to go home. Sidekick would have deliver the dinner to them already. Oh the 3 like to eat ice cream, think will buy back some. And then they also like cheesecake, must remember to buy that too. Might as well buy some of their favorite snacks too just in case they starve to death when me and sidekick happened not to be around.
[late that night]
"1" [eyes red red] : you...bought...
"2" [tears gathering] : and....also bought....
"3" [on the verge of bawling] : even bought....
I was alarm by the sight of the 3 looking so distress and so pitiful standing at the door with tears almost spilling out of their red, and i mean very red, big round eyes. I was like..what the hell....all i did is to ask them to carry the groceries inside and their reaction is so extreme! About to get angry and just about to really give it to them this time when those 3...hug me till i breathless.....
"3" [crying] : we are so sorry....
"2" [bawling] : always bullying you...
"1" : [wailing] : and make fun of you...
All 3 [completely lost it] : gomennasai...we...we...we...[sob sob]....love you!!!!!!!!
Dear diary :
Phew and that how the day ended. We enjoy the dinner. Sidekick cooking skill is getting better and better. Make us feel so blissful. By the way still haven't confirm with sidekick whether if she is a chef a not. By the time we get to the dessert, the 3 has settle down. Now sleeping like pigs. Regardless of what happened today, at least we do feel a bit closer. And also now that they feel so guilty it would be my turn to bully them and make fun of them and torture them and......muahahahhaaaaa....feel so excited just by thinking of it....hahahaaaaaaa....
Ps....dewa atta, ki o tsukete, ittekimasu.....sayonara...............
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Friday, July 06, 2007
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
irene san kyou wa ogenki desu ka
Early (and i mean very very early) in the morning
All is quiet when the silent is being shattered by :
All 3 [singing] : hey hey!!!!
"3" : i will survive!
"2" : i will survive!!
"1" : i will survive!!!
All 3 : we are survivor, we gonna make it, we will survive, we are survivor!!!
Making a commotion those three, so happy so blissful when suddenly....
...temperate drop to -50 degree...thunder! lighting! follow by blazer!.....the perfect storm!!
The 3 slowly turn their heads and saw...to their horror....sidekick(!!)....
sidekick(!!!!) is standing outside the kitchen looking at them (lucky only look did not glare but still...)...
The 3 [in a small tiny timid voice] : o..ha..you..............
{From the 3 point of view, the follow event is play out in slow motion}
Sidekick...slowly...nod...back....took...off...the...apron....open....her mouth......and....say....
{from the 3 point of view, sidekick is going to announce their tragic death!!!!)
Sidekick : breakfast is on the table. Inform her too.
Then just like a breeze, sidekick is gone....
All 3 frozen in space...........
20 seconds later
All 3 still frozen in space....
Another 20 seconds later
Came out and saw the 3 standing in the living room looking like they just saw a ghost staring at the kitchen table.
Wow got breakfast some more. Got bacon, eggs, toast bread, waffle, coffee...all my favourite.
Hmmm don't tell me today sidekick prepare breakfast?
Wonder what happened to make her feel good enough to prepare breakfast.
Know her for 32 years and the last time she did that is....is......hmmm...so long ago can't even remember when is the last time she did that.
Nah no use pondering on no value added question, better eat first then think later....ittetekimas....
30 minutes later....
Oooh time to go to work. But.....but....weird weird because the 3 haven't move since...something happened. Or are they sleepwalking? Should i wake them?
Perhaps this is their latest idea of joke. Better leave them alone...ittekimasu...
Countless seconds and minutes later, the 3 finally recovered :
"3" : i still...
"2" : .............can't believe...
"1" : ............................................it.......
"3" : hmmm...you think this is you know...
"1" : a trap?
"2" : don't know, could be...
"1" : a trap?
"2" : but do you think she will really set...
"1" : a trap?
"3" : well based on her past behaviour...
"1" : the answer is of course not!
"2" : why you day that?
"1" : because she is the type who will openly execute her enemies, you know throwing in with the torture the torment the slashing of throat chopping up the bodies parts blah blah blah the whole nine yard things.
"3" : good thinking. So we can safely conclude that...
"2" : she did not poison the breakfast.
"1" [stomach growling] : lucky cos i really ready to faint from hunger.
All 3 : itadakimas...
"1" : wonder why sidekick is so good today.
"2" : kind of make me feel uneasy.
"3" : ya i agree.
"2" : actually this goes to show she really is not such a bad person.
"1" : hai but why is it that we just can't seem to get along with her.
"3" : she is so mysterious. Kind of creepy most of the time.
"2" : maybe we really should put in the effort to you know..like...get to know her a bit.
"1" & "3" : agreed.
"2" : so its on then!
Five more minutes to go and its noon. Wonder whether if the 3 is alright a not. Don't know what they are up to. Come to think of it, why are they called the 3? Hmmm. Am sure they got names but just can't remember. Did they told me? I forgot? Hmmm...quite curious. The 3....hmmm....is it because they are 3 person so got refer to as the 3? By the way why is sidekick called sidekick. Hmmmm...the 3 and sidekick. So weird.
Extra!Extra!!Extra!!!
All 3 : for one night only! We will be conducting an interview with...tatata!!!...sidekick!!!!!
In the living room thus sit, three very super extremely nervous nuts know as the 3 and one cool cucumber only known as sidekick.
"3" [nervously] : arigato sidekick san for agreeing to this interview.
Sidekick : .........
"3" [still nervously] : today we will only be asking you questions that are requested on popular demand, hope you don't mind for some of them are personal questions.
Sidekick : .........
"3" [bit shaky] : but if you find those questions too personal and don't want to answer its also alright.
{sidekick nod her head}
"3" [feel bit confidence] : so the first question is..
"2" : are you sure you want to ask this question?
"1" : ya its a bit...you know...
"3" : alright lets skip to the next one which is...
"2" : but this one is also like....
"1" : ya also a bit...you know...
"3": then how about this...or this....or....
"2" : i think better skip all of those...unless like...
"1" [whisper] : ya you know....like caused agitation to our guest of honour.
"3" : ah i know, this one seem alright. So the first question is...what is your name?
Sidekick : .........
"3" : too personal? Oh its alright let skip this too. Next is how old are you?
Sidekick : ..........
"3" : hmmm also personal skip. Oh a lot of people ask about this too. What is your job?
Sidekick : ..........
"3" : don't want to answer too. How about......atto let me see....what is your favourite color?
Sidekick : ........
"3" : favourite food? Favourite movie? Favourite actor? Favour actress?...
Sidekick : ....... ................ ................ ..................
"3" [nervous till stomach cramp] : hmmm...atto.....does that mean you are not going to answer any of the questions?
Sidekick : .. .. .. .. ..
"2" : maybe that is her answer already..
"3" : huh? What?
"2" : you know... All the "...... ...... .........."
"1" & "3" : oh sou desu ka.........in mose code.....
"3" : end up we still didn't obtain any information about sidekick.
"2" : ask like no ask like this.
"1" : actually from this exercise there is one thing that can be confirmed about sidekick...
"3" : what is it?
"1" : the only reason that she has to stay a mystery...
"2" : can't leak out any of her personal history and sensitive about her job...
"1" : so skillful in kung fu...
"2" : has lots of weapons...
"1" : only react to violence...
"3" : so?
"1" : she must be a ....
"2" : ya...a....
"3" : sou desu ka....a.......
Wondering if sidekick is a chef a not. If not how come she is so skilful in cooking and own so may pairs of knives. Hmmm later if got meet her must ask.
"3" : hmmm...never knew that all along we are dancing with the killer...
"1" : just imagine our lives is in danger all this time and we don't even know about it.
"3" : hmmm....where is 2?
[Only then did they notice 2 who just walk in, looking a bit confuse]
"3" : got problem?
"2" : just now sidekick say..........to come back for dinner.
"1" : dinner with us?
"2" : dinner with us.
"3" : hmmm...dinner with us............
Wonder why the 3 suddenly called me, thought it's life and death only to ask me if i am going home for dinner tonight. Don't know why 3 sound distress when i said i will be eating with irene ang. Those 3 always up to something. Don't know what they are doing this time.
"3" : confirm it's only the 3 of us home alone with sidekick.
"2" : hmmmm....this morning make breakfast...
"1" : then tonight make dinner....
"2" : specially request for our attendance...
All 3 : hmmmmmmmm [remember, they like to hmmm a lot]
"3" : you don't think she know...
"1" : that we know...
"2" : that she know we know she know
"3" : she is a ...........
All 3 : hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
"1" [shiver shiver] : why is it that i feel i am the prisoner who is having my last meal......
"2" : do we have papers left?
"3" : hmmm...my last will still around..can recycle...
"1" [ready to have heart attack] : where is the phone.....got to call higher power!!!
Dear diary, came home late tonight after having dinner with irene san. As usual the house is so quiet i thought the 3 are dead.
But nope as usual they are spread all over their room sleeping.
And then they are still writing their will.
Is this a new trend. For youngsters to write will in advance. Really touch wood man.
No chance to ask them about this afternoon call.
Hmmm those 3, although troublesome but can be cute sometime.
Last minute then remember its the 3 birthday today. No wonder sidekick prepare breakfast and dinner for the 3.
Sidekick might look fierce fierce on the outside but who would believe she is so gento inside.
So that it's for today. As usual dewa atta ki o tsukete, ittekimasu.....
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Monday, May 14, 2007
Blade san, vampire no naka de dare ga ichiban suki desu ka
I blame it on the lord of the rings and matrix.
Cos since these two epic came out and proved to be a great success, suddenly all films got to come in trilogy.
And thus you have blade I, II and III.
If classification of movies is only "bad" or "good", then "blade" would, in my opinion (only), falls under "bad".
However it not really all bad for blade I and II.
Blade I and II are rated "M18".
This means that if you did not get to see any breasts then you got violence.
So no breasts to see is ok, I can see mine (hahaha).
The violence is there but not really extreme. Still, better then nothing.
In blade I, we get the original story of this half human half vampire hybrid blade on his cruise to kill vampire!
The storyline is interesting enough. You know you got the vampires vs vampires, vampires vs human, blade vs vampires formula that if the screen writer did not fuck up, will work to be quite a not bad movie. Fortunately blade I was quite successful.
Then after that, riding on the success of blade I, we got, blade II.
In blade I, we had the battle between the pure blood vampires against the duplicate vampires (those who are not born vampires but got turned aka bitten) plus of course not forgetting their ambitious goal to take over the human society.
A lot of fighting and blood spilling.
The acting is quite stiffed but bearable.
All you need to do is to concentrate on the action and one and a half hour of the movie is bearable.
In blade II, we got another new storyline.
Now it’s the vampires vs reapers, blade vs vampires vs reapers.
Who would have thought of vampires feeding on vampires. So when I finally "get" what this second movie is about, it help to maintain my interest. Even though the "wanna capture blade to breed another generation of daywalker" concept get a tiny bit old but what do you expect right :)
The actions, the pact is as good as blade I even though the acting of the various actors still failed to pass.
But what to say about blade III.
One word - "Disappointing".
The movie suck is it because the producing company thought that they could just ride on the success of blade I and II and assume that the audience would, without any doubt, be a sucker and accept whatever crap that the movie dish out?
That is the only reason I could think of.
Blade III, in my opinion shouldn't even be produced at all.
Not all movies got to come in trilogy!
The movie maker always make the mistakes of not knowing when to stop.
Just because the first movie sells, they must have the second movies, and then the third, and some even have fourth, fifth.
Often it’s the sequel that ruin it all.
Like all other vampire movies that has got sequel, sooner or later, the writer will have to bring out the one and only "dracula" when they run out of story to write.
And its ok.
I mean the most powerful, the first of its kind, the king of the vampire world, the invincible dracula!
He himself is a mystery that we all couldn't have enough with.
Do it right and you got a movie that sell.
Mess it up and you get…blade III :(
Blade III should be called "bland III"
The story is so bland that the screen writer deserve a kick on the ass.
There is totally no acting skill shown throughout the whole movie and the worst things is that the actors kept dishing out jokes that are so dull and not even the bit funny that even I felt embarassed for the actors who had to deliver it.
It was at the last minute while putting the dish in my DVD that I saw the rating is only NC 16.
There goes the violence I thought.
And quite true there was no violence to be expected which surprise me cos in a movie with such bland storyline, I thought they would at least used violence to cover its flaw but sadly there was none. Its like what stephen king said, if you can't scare them, then gross them.
The screen writer should learn from another vampire movie "from dusk till dawn".
There is not much story in "from dusk till dawn"
But what the writer lack in story, they made it up with violence and occassionally flash of breasts.
And that it, such simple things that turn the movie around and made it interesting to watch.
So far this month has watch two bad movies, "hills have eyes" and "blade III".
Luckily still got jurassic park to scare the hell out of me.
Wonder how would blade III be like if stephen spieberg were to direct it.
Dianosaurs vs Vampires vs blade?
Hmmm
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Monday, May 14, 2007
Friday, May 11, 2007
ima wa totemo tsumaranai yo
Who would have thought that this is possible?
Once there was to be no dream. Reality is merciless. And yet it is in this intolerable cruelty that he has found serenity.
With that one glance, something akin to his own he saw reflected in that pair of eyes and set upon a chain reaction that bind and interlock their fate. Take example the philandering, think that it would cease after this encountered but it exploded instead. After you stoop lower than low this coat becomes your best defence. At least they won’t smell the original repugnance as other deceptions has taken over its flavour. Oh and don’t forget that this round, they did cry after sex.
Should it be taken as coincidence or should it be called random. Will the people involved treat it seriously or as usual manipulate and twisted to serve one purpose and discard once it past it sell by date.
And did he try to explain. To let him understand what it really is by hugging his quivering form and offering useless proposition that goes one, life is hard, two, life is cruel, three, life is random, fourth, sometimes good people are forced to do bad things and like it a not, five, sometimes innocent people dies.
I try to let him know that nobody should bother that the past should be left well alone. Half way through my explanation, he stop me and asked, do you know that sometimes innocent people dies?
Try crawling through a tunnel and be engulfed in darkness till you forgot what is day and how is night. Then just when you finally got use of this obscurity crawl back out and see if you could adjust to the light. Come back and forth and at that split second when you thought you are going to collapse, you will discover that you still possessed the capability to surprise yourself.
When I am lonely, I asked myself silly questions of who I am and what is my purpose. Outsiders are so confident that I could make it. They gave me encouragement and positive feedback as long as the toilet roll. Under such circumstances what is stopping me from picking myself up and topping myself over? And when I asked myself those silly questions, I know that I don’t expect any answers. But deep down I still hope you know. That somehow he who is so high and almighty might finally heard my cry and reaches down and touches my heart and promise that he would send his guardian angel to protect me.
But still I am lonely.
And still I cry.
This void I try so hard to fill and everything I do fail to help for the emptiness is getting bigger and deeper. I killed. Only in my wildest dream it came true. I am not bad but not totally good either. I swing in between and get torn even with the slightest hint of badness seeping through my dream catcher. I asked, but you don’t answer. I have nobody on my own. Don’t tell me. I know I am lonely.
That perfect man breaks thy heart. He who remain mysteriously obscure I have been trying since to figure him out. His body is his temple and on a rainy day I saw, through that spotless window the soul residence within has been evicted long ago. It’s a haunted temple. Its wall smear with blood and the floor littered with bits and pieces of remains of those he classified as scum’s unworthy even of this piece of wasteland.
He spun and draws me till I got tangle in his web. Thus began this quest of me waiting each night: for a ring of the bell, turn of the knob, creak of the windows. Any sight to signal he is coming for me. My vulnerability is my weapon. Yet now it’s getting too heavy for me to carry and more and more often I noted the tremor in my hands when I point it at my enemies.
Even this word scares me.
It used to be enemy.
When did it become enemies?
When did I become so unpopular?
Or has the world population become so intolerable that they could find no space to accommodate my existence. When he committed murder how did he feel really?
Recently I couldn't even muster the strength to mourn. And the light that went out of their eyes, the life that drain and fade, the dead, their death, thrilled me. My vulnerability is my weapon that has now turns against me. I send coupons to those who wish to terminate me. I reduce myself to this lump cover with filth so thick even the rats scatter from me. Did I hear that or am I mistaken. Did the time really come? I think I need to take a bet.
Please excuse me for I must now leave to get ready…for that perfect man to break thy heart.
Strip of any clothes, cupping her breasts in her hands, legs crossed leaning against the white wash wall advertising perversity to molesters, rapists, and paedophilia whatever. Outrageous display of provocation took your breath away and even the saint couldn’t help but steal a glimpse. Somehow the brain could not process this image of an innocent angelic face coupling with that womanly body that sluttish gesture of lust and yearning.
Did your heart skip a beat?
Are you hit by pang of pity; pity that it is not your hands caressing that flesh of fresh meat squeezing that breasts? Are you horrified by this effortless lure of temptation then tried to compensate this guilt by dragging up the topic of morality? If you are suppose to represent uprightness, why do I still hear your thought questioning the likelihood of her spraying her legs for you. You wanted but hesitated. In lieu of this dilemma can I take away the probability of you ever venture to the city of sin? What must I do to convince that it is only as easy as stepping forward and asking her how much? Come on tell me do you want! Stop dilly-dally, she is not here for no reason! Show her the money!
Who would have thought that this is possible?
Once there was to be no dream. Reality is merciless. And through this serenity he first identifies then apprehended madness.
Maybe that why even when the coldness of the blade first prick then penetrate the skin, he could still deem this as hilarity and laugh all the way till it slice open his heart.
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Friday, May 11, 2007
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
doushite yama ni wa mutant na no desu ka
senshu no kinyoubi ni eiga o mita desu.
namae wa "the hill have eyes".
totemo tsumaranai yo.
saw the review for the second instalment of the movie and got the impression that the first was nice you know. so went to buy but only got vcd no dvd, so its ok.
then the horror and nightmare really begin man.
the first half of the movie was so boring i really am half asleep when watching it.
the story is very sloppy with no plot at all.
and i mean nothing at all.
the whole layout of the movie is predictable, the scary scenes are predictable and even the ending is so predicatable!!!
there is completely no surprise at all.
the movie is just like the last piece of chicken left on the buffer table that nobody want to touch.
the starting was ok. you know with a little bit of blood and violence to hook you in. and then it went downhil from there.
the family who will encounter the mutants appeared.
you got the typical ex military dad who liike guns (eyesrolling-in US movie, all ex military guys got to carry guns, talk about guns or sleep with their guns), the nagging mum, the not so beautiful oldest married daughter with the "oh i am not into earning money but working for my interest and oh i am into world peace so don't show me yr guns" husband and not forgetting their typically cute baby.
then the typically slutty beautiful second daughter who did nothing at all except bitch bitch bitch and ya then strip to her bra and suntan.
the youngest son, unfortunately play by this young actor who was from my point of view, too good for this movie.
i say unfortunately cos his performance seem out of place among the others who did not act at all.
and then you got this old guy who for reasons not being explain, not deform and not being eaten by the mutants, but seem to be working with them.
then you got the mutants who are damn ugly and evil and kill and eat human (yawn)
and this other mutant girl, not really very deform for she look only a bit weird, who not surprise at all is a mutant with an angel heart (yawn yawn yawn).
she save the youngest son when he met an accident, she save the baby girl when she got abducted and finally she sacrificed herself saving the baby dad!!
should be so touching and should make you bawl.
but i completely feel nothing for her.
there was no story line being develop for her and its a pity she end up to be yet another annoying character.
and after all the characters made their appearance all they did for the first half of the movie was talk talk and talk. and there was no chemistry at all between the characters to make the talk even a tiny bit interesting!
second half of the movie doesn't save the first though.
even with the actions finally in place its still doesn't stop me from giving it a thump down.
totally not worth watching!!
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
minnasan ohayougozaimasu
In a jungle far far away...and i mean very very far far away....in this isolated church....
The setting is that the scene will start from a congregation.
And when the camera zoom in, we saw that confession is in process.
Cast : the 3
Cast : sidekick
Cast : special guest appearance, daddy priest, refer in here as "dp".
"3" [eyes wide stern and concern] : daddy priest i have sin. I have not confess in.....in......ato........in......ato....ato....
[One minute later]
"3" {still trying to remember} : ato.....in.....ato...ato.......hmmm....
Dp : it's alright if you can't remember the length of time since your last confession my child. Now tell me your confession.
"3" [mumbling to herself] : ato.....hmmm....exactly when is the last time i did my confession. My memory is always good. Couldn't have forgotten. Atoooo.........
Dp : now now it's really alright my child. Let's start with your confession...
"3" [lost in her own thought] : is it that time? No not that. Must be.....not that too...then it has to....ah not that!...when...when...[started to get hysterical]...when!!!!
Dp [give up?] : ~~~~~~
{Commercial break}
(same congregation, same church, same daddy priest, different room, different confessor)
"2" [heavy-eyes slagging] : daddy priest, i have sin for i have not confess since..
Dp [quickly cut in] : its already let's get on with the confession.
"2" [a bit taken back by dp hastiness] : ok let's see...[deep breath]..i eat too much sleep too much watch too much television too fat not tall enough don't do exercise consume too much sweet junk food not ambitious enough over relax attitude don't now how to cook don't know how to clean don't know any house works like to argue with 3 tend to bully 1 view things negatively also...(blah blah blah blah.....on and on and on)....
[two hours later]
"2" : blah ....blah...blah.....blah....blah...............
Dp [can i give up?] : ~~~~~~
{Commercial break}
(same congregation, same church, same daddy priest, different room, different confessor)
"1" [eyes wide sweet innocent] : daddy priest i have si...
Dp [tire already] : its really really alright let's start with your confession...
"1" [worry worry] : pertaining to what has been happening lately...you know...like there exist some conflict...and then become worst...and then it's affecting everyone...and then...and then...i....like.....i......
Dp : yes?
"1" [eyes start swelling with tears] : i...i know....i know i shouldn't...but recently...recently...this is....this is....[on the verge of breakdown]...i...i....can't...
Dp [painc] : calm down my child. I am here to help you, tell me your problem.
"1" [completely lost it] : i don't want to go to hell! I don't want to go to hell!!!!
Dp [have to give up?] : ~~~~~~~~
{Commercial break}
(same congregation, same church, same daddy priest, different room, different confessor)
Sidekick [cool cumumber] : ---------
Dp [no words to describe weariness] : let's....let's just begin....
Sidekick [still cool cumumber] : -------------
Dp [really can't find any words to describe weariness] : you can confess now.
Sidekick [super cool cumumber] : ----------------
Dp [a little panic] : you....you may proceed...
Sidekick [ultra cool cumumber] : -------------------
Dp [weariness panic lost..whatever] : does that mean you have nothing to confess?
Sidekick [universe one and only super ultra cool cumumber] : --------------
Dp [??????] : ~~~~~~~~~
And that is how it goes on and on.....
"3" : must remember! Must remember! I am still so young and beautiful how can i be so forgetful so early stage of my still youngful life!!!! Senile is not in my dictionary!!!MUST REMEMBER!when!...when!!!...when!!..........
"2" : and then get angry too easily get depress too easily get excited too easily get anxious too easily get obsessed too easily give up too easily.........
"1" : idon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohell
idon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohellidon'twanttogotohell!!
Sidekick : .. ... .... ..... ...... ....... ....... ........ ......... .......... ........... ............ ............. .............................................
[dp : lord, save me!!!!!..sob...sob...]
So end up....gang of confessors back from the jungle far far away...
"3" : end up wasted my time cracking my brain trying to figure out when is my last confession only to realise that i have never been for confession before. Blur me.
"2" : end up talking all my time away with nonsense that my throat sore and drank too much water and got to kept going to the toilet.
"1" : end up i cried till eyes swollen voice hoarse so tired and then falls asleep.
"3" : by the time recovered...
"2" : daddy priest gone..........
"1" : gone with the wind....
"3" : but this is quite interesting.
"2" : and refreshing.
"1" : new experience.
Sidekick *cough cough*
All 3 [excited..cos sidekick cough] : yes?
Sidekick : we must...
All 3 [oooh sidekick speak!] : YES?
Sidekick : really....
All 3 [sidekick talking to us!!!] : YESSSSSSS?
Sidekick : do this again.
All 3 : hmmm..........
And they all live happily ever after [except for daddy priest].
The end.......
In a jungle far far away...and i mean very far far away...even further than the above jungle...almost at the end of the world, there lives three evil witches, who are very powerful and can communicate through telepathy.
"1" : ..........?
"2" : *********
"3" : &&&&&&&&&&
"1" : ...?????
"3" : @@@@@@@
"2" : $$$$$$$$$
"1" & "3" : !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then in a town although far away but not too far away from the jungle where the witches residence, there lives a martial art master, sidekick, who possessed psychic power and can overhead communication even through telepathy and happen to catches the above conversation between the witches, discover their evil plot and immediately proceed to inform the law enforcement officer aka "she".
Sidekick : !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She : is it?
Sidekick : .......
She : ooooh!
Sidekick : *********&&&&&&&........
She : i see.
Sidekick : @@@@@@
She : and then?
Sidekick : $$$$$$$$$$
She : interesting interesting
Sidekick : ??????
She : let's confront the witches
And this is how everyone ended up at the jungle and the confrontation in the garden of good and evil goes like this :
"1" : ???????
Sidekick : !!
"3" : !!!!!!!!!!!
"2" : @##@##@@@@
She : is it?
"1" : ()()()()()()()
"3" : <><><><><><><><><>< "2" : {}{}{}{}{}{}{}{}{}{}{}{}{}{ Sidekick : [][][][][]()()()()<><><><><>
She : oooooooh
"1" : ```````````??????
"3" : ^^^^^^^^^^
"2" : =============
Sidekick : ???.........``````~~~~~~
She : i see i see
"1" : ~~~~~~~~~
"3" : ........$$$$$
She : and then?
"2" : *******~~~
She : interesting interesting
"1" : ... J
"2" : .... JJ
"3" : ..... JJJ
Sidekick : JJJJ
Everyone : sou desu ka!!!!!!
End up it's miscommunication due to too many telepathy wire being crossed up.
And then everyone lives happily ever after.
[like this also can? Hmmmmm]
The end.
What if scenario and would the characters be able to convert fairy tales into reality.
Would the 3 ever...
"3" [on the phone] : sidekick come back for dinner tonight. I have prepare a feast. Inform her too.
"2" : i am a vegetarian. I work out regularly. I have lost 10kg!
"1" : i have found a job!
And would she ever...
She : i am going to further my study. I have applied courses. Degree, master slam dunk with bachelor! I am a mathematic expert!
And finally would sidekick ever...
Sidekick : i am getting married.
Don't think anyone will live happily ever after.
The end.
The aftermath of everyone living happily ever after is that everyone is so happy till everybody forgot the most important opening!
"3" : she is right how could we!
"2" : so overjoyed that we actually forget!
"1" : goes to show how deprived of attention we are for the past week!
Sidekick : ......dun!
Don't mind don't mind, its still not too late, let's say it together then.
All 3, sidekick, she & me : today is the 26 April 2007!!!
[rigid rigid as everybody suddenly feel that something is not quite right]
[look left see right and then all saw.....]
"3" : who are you?
"2" : that right who are you?
"1" : why are you here?
She : how did you get in here?
Sidekick : dun!
Look left see right only then realise they are referring to me.
Me : you mean me?
All 3, sidekick & she : that right, you!
Me : what do you all mean? I am me! You all know me!
"3" : what do..
"2" : you mean...
"1" : we all...
She : know you...
Sidekick : dun!
Me : don't joke gals! It's me! It's me!
All 3, sidekick & she : ahhhh!!!! Masaka....
Suddenly the sky darken, thunder roar lighting flash rain pours the ground shake!!!!!
All of them are holding long knives in their hands!!!!!!
"3" : hehe..
"2" : hehehe...
"1" : hehehehe...
She : hehehehehe....
Sidekick : a......l....i...e....n..........
Me : ~~~~~ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Minnasan ittekimasu......
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Thursday, April 26, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
watashi no sakubun
[dun!! just now i already type everything out nice nice scully got network problem cannot post. lol]
second yr student now got to write three sakubun on each term.
i have written one so far. quite a simple one. but not so simple too cos now not only to write in hiragana but must also include katakana and kanji.
and the kanji although is chinese words but jap chinese words are all written in the old complicated style not our simplifed one.
so shock when after the first class test, saw that i make mistakes not on hiragana and katakana but in kanji!!!
imagine i got A1 for my "O" level chinese one wo.
if my chinese teacher saw will break her heart one lo. hehe
but at least got an A for my jap sakubun...hahahaaaa.
[PS...the sakubun look so beautiful when written down in hiragana and kanji. just imagine one year ago i don't even know any jap and now can write sakubun. wanna cry....huhuhu....]
jap version
title : watashi
Watashi wa shingapooru jin de, namae wa an hon kyao desu.
ginkou ni tsutomete imasu.
Kotoshi de watashi wa nineh nihongo no benyou o shite imasu. Ima nihon go ga hanaseru youni narimashita. Shikashi, amari yoku jouzu dewa arimasen. Haha wa ganbatte iru to itte imashita.
Kono goro shigoto ga isogashii desu kara, yasumi ga hoshii desu. Yasumi no hi wa doko e mo ikimasen. Taitei heya de benyou o shitari, terebi o mitari shimasu
Hon o yomu koto mo todemo suki desu . Manga ga hoshii desu. Suki na tabemono wa nihon ryouri desu. yoku oi to mei to san nin de ｢sakae｣ e ninhon ryouri o tabe ni iki masu.
Ryou ko ni itta koto ga arimasen. Nihon wa donna kuni ka wakarimasen kara, nihon e iki tai desu.
Sigo ni nihon go no benyou wa muzukashii desu ga, omoshiroi desu.
english version
i am singaporean and name is ang hong keow.
now working in a bank.
this is my second yr studying jap. am able to speak but not very well. mum said i should study hard.
recently work is very busy therefore wish to take leave. during rest day did not go anyway. usually stay at home and study or watch tv.
like to read book and wish to have lot and lot of manga. like to eat japanese food too. often went to [sakae] with niece and nephew.
never went for travel before so don't know wat kind of country is japan so wish to go there.
finally japanese language is difficult to study but its interesting.
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
nihon go ga mada jouzu dewa arimasen
It is very dangerous. Times like this that can either built an empire or ruin it. Can’t believe what those stupid egoism overflow bustard do or done or did. When did I become so indifferent to what that is happening to me? Don't even have the energy to argue or to think about it. Its like if this happen then ok with me. If it did not then ok too. I mean be frank what the use of worrying right? Small prawn like me…worry for wat. What is meant to happen will happen so leave these to others.
And then whenever I am in front of my pc I run out of things to say but once I get up and out of the chair then all those thoughts would be pouring into my brain till it seem that it would explode. So I would stare and stare at the blank white and too bright screen till my eyes hurts and swollen and then…something must be wrong.
Finally after much anticipation my dream, well only half of my dream, will come through. When that day comes I will not look back. I will sail towards where my destiny takes me and goodbye old life and hello new life. No matter what obstacles I will encounter from that day onward I will have to brace it and that time it would be my turn to say to those people 'fuck you' man.
It won't be long before someone will discover the truth or be shock by it. I mean harvesting it for some time now and when it did…man what mayhem it would cause. I deal in nitty gritty and I am greedy. Don't expect any charity from me. In my plan there won't be any salvation and everyone would be my slaves. What? You don't like it? Then fuck you! Don't tell me. I don't want to know. Why should I know? Go to hell man!
And then as each day passes by did I notice that something has indeed been changed and that it is not my imagination that causes these changes. Such is the depth of my disturbing mind and degrading mentality that I always assume that the everyday life and everyday encounter exist merely in my illusion world and all is only the product of my hallucination. Doubt seep through no matter how hard I try to convince that it is not doubt but reality. Where is my faith? I often said that I lost it. But fear to realise that maybe I don't even possessed it in the first place. How to measure faith? How to know that it truly exists? If I say that I believe in a God does that mean I have faith? But if I don't believe in this belief then do I not possess even a tiny bit of faith? If I do not have faith then the question is how I survive, so far, or into the future. Can I really believe that the future will come after today become yesterday and yesterday become history and soon history become distorted and take a leap into the category of mythology. How would you judge me on this then?
We thought we could do anything just because we can. If that is so then why not our creator, be it your God or my God or however many Gods out there who created each and one of us, make us fly? Give us wings. Give us supernatural power. Give us the gift of premonition of precognition. Why not? Why not make us superman and wonder woman since he or she has create us to be the superior of all animals. Why then he or she not makes us the superior of all creatures in the whole universe or galaxy? Indeed that is curious enough for us to ponder upon. Or has our egotism overly blown up till we believe that we, ourselves, mere mortals, are Gods ourselves. Can that be considered as faith? I believe so I have faith. And so whatever I believe, no matter how absurd it might seem gain me faith. I am God so I can do whatever I want? Does it make any sense to you?
God gave men a pairs of eyes and he gave women two breasts that block men's view. We should all forgive men for making stupid mistakes cos their vision are only the size of a woman's breasts. Men are doomed. They can't see beyond a woman breasts and they can't think beyond their penis. What kind of a God but a woman would create a creature that are suppose to be perfect yet throw in his path endless obstacles to prevent his advancement and make him look ridicule and foolish and ignorance and in the end the only beneficiary is God who would then be seen so perfect and oh so high almighty. God is a he? Maybe. God is a she? The possibility of that I would say is high…very high. Don't believe me? Take a look at the guy sitting next you. Walking evidence. What else do you need? No need for a storyline. No need to have any motive or drama. Our life is dramatic enough to last us through eternity. Who need that? You? Certainly not me.
Why is it that when people talk about their death, they always like to assume that they "will go to heaven" when their life expire. Why must everyone go to heaven? Why doesn’t anyone want to go to hell? Does heaven really means good and hell means badness. But in this world, this time and century that we are living in, how do we really differentiate between what is really good and what is really bad? And how many points do we have to score before we can safely progress to heaven and how low we have to get to be banished to hell. Take a look around. We are in hell! Is it so bad or is it any better. Heaven is hidden and tug in every corner of this world that we are living in but did anyone really went looking for it. Did someone actually wake up in the morning and realise and proclaim that he or she is in hell and then proceed to seek out heaven. No! We are in hell now and everyone knows it.
But we are comfortable with it. We are so comfortable in this situation, in this hell hole that some asshole are so unsatisfied that they wanted to turn hell into a black hole and let the whole world be suck into nothingness. They believe they are creating a better place for us to live in but first they have to kill to slaughter to destroy to demolish. Get rid of all only then there will be peace. But what is left when all is gone? When hell is gone, it takes away the little heavens as well. They don't know. They thought they are doing us a favour! I always thought that after crucified the son of God, human being couldn't get any lower then that, but the depth of human atrocities not only stun me speechless, it shame me into non existence. Human beings are not even fit to be called animals. Animals don't root their own species when they are killing, they don't stones their victim, they don't strip their victims of their dignity and pride and tormented them for pleasure and they don't toy and spit like we did on humanity.
What are we? Remember Satan. If we are anything at all, then I do believe that we are all children of darkness. We are Satan’s child not God.
If I didn't say anything, if I should keep quiet and whatever might happened later let them guess let them speculate let the rumours spread I am not around to bother anymore. Had a dream that is so real I began to doubt if my mind is playing tricks on me. When I go down who will lift me up. Who will stand by me and tell me that I would be love and nothing bad would happen to me. What to think when no matter where turns to, there is not even an exit sign available. Trap in this hell hole everyday repeating the same answer, I won't I won't I won't. To whom this is address to and to whom it has been received. Tie my hands behind my back I won't sin so I must be good and that how I die good.
Why do you still ask? When you knew that I would lie. To lighten the blow that is how I see it but deceived is how you would interpret. Why make it so complicate when simplicity is what he always intend for us to be.
Since when did I convert from die hard to accommodative? Since when I stop saying I won't to I might? Since when did I become soft hearted and started smiling instead of exhibiting sullen and forlorn all the time? Expect the world to revolve around me only to find myself spinning out of control. And the symptoms rushes crowding me when I yearn to be far from the madding crowds. Merely a mortal yet in my heart of hearts I always thought I am different thus would not confined myself to the daily routine of the others. To be the outsider of a world that has been destiny for me. How I do wish that this ain't so. But reality, sweet and sour and bitter, once bitten it left its mark and the poison seep deep. No antidote no remedy.
Try my best not to be cruel. Everyday planning my life and try damn hard for it to go the way it is suppose to be. No surprise. Surprises disturb peace and whack my schedule out of proportion and unnerve the heart. Clone myself and given it’s a new alien DNA and when the time come board the spaceship I will be gone no time to say bye bye I will residence at Mars but where would you be on judgement day?
Now I know what it means. When proclaimed that force to leave because have to breath don't want to stay and suffocate for no love is worth such sacrifice. Make any sense to you? When love to such extend of breathlessness of hearing the muscle tearing the heart expanding fearing it would explode but doing nothing to prevent its perish. No need to go for any training. Every word every rule written has already been known. Yet why is it so difficult to put it to use. Always afraid always hesitate no matter what others might say. I am the one who have to part the sea not them so what do they know. Try to have the courage but without a pair of hands I can hold on to or a shoulder I can lean everything seem impossible. Looking at him, staring till my eyes hurt and my heart breaks over and over. Knowing that nothing will come out of this infatuation yet persisted. Who say I need to? Who order this to happen? I am not mortal I won't dwell on such ridicule. Is that where all the holding back came from? I am not mortal I can't be hurt. When that happened, whoever did that, God bless him and whoever stood between.
I do nothing. I wait and see. Wait and see and by doing so I allow evil to triumph. I permit it to happen just as I authorised for so many others cruelty that has been imposed. Improvise is what others have to do to. Compromise is what they have to get use to. I make all rules and I sit back and wait for it to be carried out. Soon arrogant poison my heart and pride blinded my sight. Walking in the dark my hands touches foetus brushes corpses and the wetness on my hand upon taste is the tears and blood of the innocent victims. Coming out of the darkness we each senses the other presence on guard prepare for war. When challenge he whisper 'are you afraid of the dark' and in this instance I have known; in falling into darkness I have damned myself into the dark of all darkness. When it comes, it comes so swiftly so silently and so painlessly it took me a century to get to the truth. Are you afraid of the dark? Make the wrong move when I say 'I do'.
What the heck. Don't know what I am grumbling about or mumbling about all day. Couldn't have what I want. What I have I don't want. What the hell is this. See I say it again. What the hell. Actually what the hell is what the hell. I mean does it mean what is hell or what the big deal I am in the hell kind of what the hell or could it simply just mean what the hell like what the heck is just what the heck. Heck what. Head or tail. Stop thinking too much darling. Better still don't think.
And what about that. What about this. Who is going to taking care of the caring part if I don't care? Doesn't make any sense right? So eventually I ended up caring anyway. Perhaps the secret is to retard oneself. Only the crazy and insane is the bless one. Think they don't know anyway that they are dead to the world? Oh baby they do know. They are the one who sees through all the masks and camouflage and the truth of it all drove them mad. The rest of us, still living in deception and dreaming the dreaming of the impossible and refusing to accept what is already is. This world this universe was born evil and evil will roam as long as living things exist. We are that seed of doubt that demonic elements that corrupt this could be beautiful world. Hell mouth has been opened and we will die by jumping into it voluntarily.
And then declare let there be light to guide the lost lamp. Let there be love to nurse the tender heart. Let there be tears to wash away pain. Let there be happiness to compensate the sorrow and let there be morning to separate it from the dark so that while there is time where evil run loose there is also a time for righteous to triumph. So fair is fair equal is equal. About the pound of flesh that has been given, another equal pound will be taken; be it from you or your loves one. So do ponder whenever ask will you. After I do is an unchangeable aftermath which will be stuck on the notice board with no amendment.
Write in asking for early retirement don't care if there is any penalty charges or interest in lieu. Beg to reconsider to avoid tragedy but am told that one's existence is the tragedy. What can I say then? When decided that thyself is the error should be erase instead of lingering suffering till when fate get tire have enough no more fun and call back the transaction. So let go. Standing behind watch the figure lurch forward and the tiny cell falls and falls till whatever is left splash all over the ground. He says it’s not right. She asks why do it. I was caught speechless.
What should I tell? How should I tell?
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Monday, April 23, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
anata no shumi wa nan desu ka
A typically normal morning...
In hougang
In a four room flat bedroom
Its 7.15am
Our lead character, irene ang the great aka shamarthini is standing in front of her cd player
Staring at an empty cd cover with such serious expression and intense concentration
Something bad happened?
You could say so because the most unthinkable tragic has occurred!
Her life has been turned upside down in mere seconds!
Staring at the empty cd cover, for the first time, irene finally understand how cruel life could be
Why must this happened, she screamed in her head.
This is not real, i must be dreaming
Yet the cruelty of all lies in front of her
She has, unknowingly for one whole day, misplace her orange range CD!
Not just any cd but orange range!
Her favourite orange range cd which she has to listen to every morning or else she will lose the purpose of living!
Yet now...yet now it was lost......lost!!!!!
And the most horrible of all is that she could not remember where did she lost it!
So she searched high and low...
In the drawer, in her bag, under the bed, on top of the bed
All in vain
Couldn't find still couldn't find
Therefore her morning was destroy before it even started!!
The end of the world!!!!
On the bus when she was listening to her shaman king soundtrack, she kept thinking of orange range
On the mrt when reading waqwaq comic, she still kept thinking of orange range
On the way to buy her breakfast, she was almost ready to cry as she couldn't forget orange range
In the mist of all these agony, irene felt another foreign chill seeping up her spine.
Suddenly she is afraid to go to the stall that she bought her breakfast every morning.
What is this? She think.
Its only a stall, why should i be afraid of the stall then?
She couldn't understand.
Even though she don't want to, her legs seem to move on its own and irene find herself walking to the stall
And come face to face with lots of baos
Previously the sight of all the baos will bring her such joy
But today she was filled with nothing but dread!
Why is it that today it is so hard to make a decision on which baos to buy.
This shouldn't be the case.
Just tell the aunty, irene think
It won't be that easy
A voice whisper
Chosen one
You
Chosen one
Hey who is speaking
Irene look left and right but nobody seem to be talking to her
Yet she did heard it
A voice whispering cloak and dagger predicting doom
Chosen one
There it is again
But before irene could speak out
She felt the surrounding darken
Suddenly there is an explosion follow by a blinding white light that engulf everything.
Irene opened her eyes, Heard a voice blooming
"choose"
Upon those word, she felt a warming sensation coming from her left palm
A white object appear
The same thing happened to her right palm
Staring at the two objects in her hands irene was lost.
"listen carefully", the voice said, " you are the chosen one. In your left hand is a chicken bao and in your right hand is a char sao bao. Whichever bao you choose will decide the fate of the earth and all living creatures existing within"
What? Irene become even more confused.
What it means by i am the chosen one? She question.
A bao will decide the fate of earth? Come on this is ridiculous.
"i know what you think. You must think that what power a bao can have to be able to decide the fate of earth. You must not take this lightly irene. If you chose a chicken bao, then char sao bao will become extinct and sixty five million years later, all you can see of a char sao bao is in a movie called "char sao bao park" produced by stephen Spielberg. The same will happen to chicken bao should you choose char sao bao. Remember that you carry the responsibility of all the baos on your shoulder. Please take this seriously and make the right decision. Do you want your fellow human beings to eat chicken bao or char sao bao for the rest of eternity."
Oh dear what should i do? Irene panic. Whatever decision i make, one of the bao will extinct. Why must i be the chosen one? Why must this kind of thing happened to me? Why couldn't i be the chosen one to win toto or 4D!
Oh how irene wanted to cry for she is felt lonely as there is no one to help her.
"you must decide soon irene. If you did not reach a decision in the next 24 hour, both baos will disappear and become extinct."
A deadline some more! Irene yelled.
But ... But... What should i do to make sure that i make the right decision? She asked.
Is there any hint a not, she beg.
"take the north east line", the voice instruct, "there you will meet "the 3" who will help you.
Hurry irene, god bless and may the power of the baos be with you"
With that, the light disappear and the surrounding return to normal.
Irene found herself in the toilet staring at the toilet bowl.
Phew, she was relieve. I must be dreaming, she think.
But wait, how come she is in the toilet. She should be on her way to work.
Looking into the mirror, her eyes widen till it almost pop out.
Through the mirror, she saw the reflection of the chicken bao and the char sao bao in her hands.
But when she look down, her hands are empty, she is holding nothing.
Yet when she look up into the mirror again, there it is. The two baos.
Irene could feel the power of the baos seeping into her hands.
I am not dreaming, She mumble…I am the chosen one, she whisper
Responsibility of the baos is on my shoulder
Previously she might be in shock and unable to comprehend the seriousness of the situation,
but now the reality of all start to sink in did she realize that she is in trouble! Irene become so scare
Wait, she calm herself, the voice did give her a hint. Take the north east line (why north east line she think. The fare so expensive.
Don’t know can claim a not) and she will meet "the 3".
Oh they must be the wise men, oooh perhaps they are wise super handsome young gorgeous boy boy.
The image of her surrounded by all those handsome young boys finally cheer her up.
Well, no time to waste, let buckle up and save the baos she decided.
With that irene pluck up her courage, take the first step out of the toilet and therefore embarked upon the journey to "save the baos!!!!!!"
PS.... If you find this very super extremely boliao, then you are right. Irene ang the great is doomed by the fact that she has surpassed her capability of being that boliao irene to become the very super extremely boliao irene. Some one call woodbridge!!!!
PS of PS...hmmmm thought this should be about the missing orange range but...why it become baos??
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Friday, April 20, 2007
Thursday, April 19, 2007
linkin park no album ga todemo hoshii desu yo
He lies to all. None was the wiser just a bunch of chain of fools. He came, he saw, he charmed and he conquer. He is the master till the end.
A mother slays her child to prevent the end of the world yet without knowing begin the first phase of Armageddon. The future came too late and dies in his mother's arm. Who say good always win and evil will tremble beneath it shadow. The price to pay never so great none could estimate so all underestimate and the tears that drop falls through the apparition that she could not even claim and the final world utter from his vanishing mouth break her heart and damn her soul.
Can you understand the pain; gravediggers digging way passed six feet and when abandon this huge cavity filled with water would collected nothing but flotsam and jetsam and occasionally a corpse would flow by and no matter how she yelled it will never be loud enough to reach heaven to reach his ear and so half way it shattered and falls and mixing with the rain filled and drown the heart.
Struggling to make sense to accept reality that what has been done cannot be undone yet failed and forever dwell in fantasy lost and doomed. Bystanders can only pity and even when they claimed they understand you can see in their eyes the uneasiness and guilt swinging alone side by side on a deserted playground. When the dog barks, the wolves’ answer instead seeming to say coming for you, we are coming for you!
They warned that the truth is better not known. But curiosity kills the cat and with unsteady hands pulls open the bag let it out and when regret it has already scramble away spreading its disease along the way. Thinking that she has chosen the right side upholding righteous only to be told that nothing was what it seem its all forgery nothing is genuine. Realising that the so called hero is nothing but a coward the fog lifted and when the truth came crashing down, it will be the final straw that break the camel back. Staring unbelievingly at the defeated figure who not so long ago dominated her life delivering so called justice that never seem so phoney and pretentious she planted the first seed for vengeance. Begging for forgiveness urging do you understand do you understand when all the while stunned as she was the only neon sign flashing burning red in her mind is: They knew! They knew!
Made a fatal decision innocent third party seek her out offering comfort and consolation to a heart in process of corruption and speeding towards the highway to a never ending obsession in administering the coup de grâce. Only realize that something was amiss when the hand upon the shoulder was shrug off and replying to his question of I wouldn't know what to do, the answer came, expressionless and toneless in the form of the mist of blood staining the wall and she said, but I do know what to do.
In order for one to survive, many must perish. Sacrifice has been made the only journey will be what lay ahead no turning back. If you don't believe it, its only because you couldn't accept that it could happened. The script has been amended the actors couldn't remember their lines and when the curtain lift, the audience stare at them they staring back till someone finally yelled 'wat up'. The villain, sitting among the angry crowd, munching an apple chucked at his own mischief. And because he look so human so innocent nobody knew that he is the culprit responsible for this hullabaloo.
Marching right into the demon den getting up close and personal face to face foes of century finally standing on the same line; filthy and sinister roll in blood. Lord of darkness Lord of files, in demonstrating my sincerity I bought you this…lump rolling leaving bloody trail behind and when finally still the children cheers.
When the last leaves falls blood will be spilled. That is the prophecy. Yet before it could be anticipated disaster already befalls on all. Countless graves, newly dug filled the cemetery. Rushing from funeral to funeral familiar faces brushes passed their shoulders almost touch. Less a few from this group add a couple to that group six degree of separation all ended up in the garden of remembrance hearing the monotonous chanting of ashes to ashes dust to dust. Silence broken when a child of six exclaimed real fun mum, real fun.
Got it? Got it?
Without sensation they called it numb. The skin broke and the bloods, soldiers marching in thin red line, crawl from the wound and drip on the floor. Ignore by the wounded smear by by-passer. Unforeseen circumstances when play out in another scenario with another type of actors it would be suck at greedily and disgustingly. Confined in the asylum is this group of widowers whose world are torn apart and forever covered in veil. Whispering their devastation in desperation demand falls upon deaf ear what they wanted to hear would never be deliver crying in vain. Dial up the psychic hotline instead of asking she kept repeating why asked when you already know the answer…why asked when you already know the answer.
The question of : how did it happened.
After it get so hopeless, after it get to the point of knowing no use kidding by saying tomorrow would be better, after corpses pile upon corpses litter and overflow every empty street corner, after the eyes cried till it blind, after the heart expire through excessive shock, after all of that, after every belief became disbelief, after faith became faithless, after each fairy tale ending got altered and ended with they suffered ever after, after each string of silver lining turn grey and then blacken and then vanish, finally gave up.
But persistent as she is, kept coming and coming. For once she had look upon this world that destroy her first and take a vow; never stop till the last breath has been taken the last drop of blood got soak up.
Turn of the century where the demons rules; she leading the pack.
Evil killed for pleasure, righteous killed in the name of justice. No matter who say what, blood will have to be shed. The villain could be the slayer, the villain could be the knight in shining armour. The villain forever dwelling in the grey area. Make me a proposal I couldn't deny, he leer, and salvation would be yours. None wanted the dice to be cast in that direction. Yet one did. Done deal.
Everything I do I rush through so I can do something else. So run run run. That's It? No, not that! Not that's it! It’s what. Its why. Its when. Its who. Its how. Its her holding tightly to the lifeless body rocking back and forth moaning : nonononononononononononononononono…NO!!!!
Its whose the winner and whose the looser. Its who you play against with.
Unable to comprehend suffocated by doubt hysterically crying: but we are fighting for justice trying to prevent the end of the world! Shouldn't that meant something! Shouldn't that meant something!
A poltergeist that happened to pass by, overhead this exclaimed couldn't help but laugh out loud and saying its which side you are standing on honey. And you are standing on the losing side. And that really did meant something wouldn't you say.
In this world, a human can be born with a foul demon heart. In another world a demon can be born with a human heart. Even though sympathize with this situation there are certain boundaries that couldn't be cross couldn't be meddle with, unfortunately this included. But harvesting a fool’s hope dreaming of the impossible visioning amity take a chance why not? Thus dragging what remaining humane he had discarding all warning sign crawl out of the sewage and trespassed into prohibited territory only to be slaughtered when sighted by a nerve cracking freshman first day on duty. The soldiers high five each others congratulate the green horn for a job well done. Unknowingly severing the last link between sanity and insanity. Any message that could be delivered burnt to ashes by this twist which once again proving that this game is always full of surprises. The sacrifice could only wait in despair for whatever would happen to happen.
While far far away high up in the tower, the red king smile and rest in peace counting down the days when trepidation would be unleashed once again.
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Thursday, April 19, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
watashi wa "noun" ga hoshii desu
oh oh times flies flies...
and then suddenly...
without any warning...
and with such hasty...
i am now...officially ......
"3" : aiyo 32 liao huh...
"1" : poor thing lor...
"2" : still single and left on the shelf 32 yrs [OLD] lor..
"3" : mi won't like that one i tell u all. when i 32 i will be like you know..
"2" : ya ya mi two lor...
"1" : and then we would like so like that lor also...
"3" : of course we will..definitely not like you know who lor...
"1" poor thing lor...
"2" : maybe forever left on the shelf lor...
all "3" : which we won't we won't we won't lor...
(irene ang vomit blood till her big bowl also cannot hold drip drip on the floor)
irene : i could have argue back that irene ang won't be left on the shelf forever and sometimes in the future she would meet her prince charming and live happily after or she would make something big of herself like win the toto $10m lottery!! i could say that but i am not going to as it would make me seem so small unlike someone else!!
"3" : still no die heart wo..
"1" : still say don't want to argue wo...
"2" : then should just keep quiet ma...
"3" : yalor talk so much still dare say don't want to argue ...
"2" : pathetic leh...pathetic..
"1" {mouth open} : gashgashgash..
"3"&"2" [panicpanic] : what happened!what happened!
"1" [in british accent] : dear you just say the word "pathetic"...
"3" [in ah lian accent] : you did hor! so deep! so deep!!!!
"2" [paikia accent] : now then you know i got ink one huh...hahahaha...
all "3" : we are the best!!!!
and that is how i got neglected.
and in the mist of killing....................
"3" : eh, end liao huh.....
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
watashi no sensei wa kowatari yukari
kotoshi no sensei wa kirei desu ne. onna no sensei desu.
sensei no namae wa kowatari yukari desu.
kotoshi wa watashi no ni neh nihon go no benkyou shimasu.
kowatari yukari sensei wa kotoshi no nihon go no benyou wa totemo taihen to iimashita.
sakubun o kaimasu.
make me a bit scare cos elementary one still learn like blur blur now got to write compositon. and then got to use katakana and kanji some more.
but yesterday also learned how to write my name in katakana.
quite cute.
am keeping my fingers cross that i won't slag this round.
one class per week is more relaxed then previous twice per weeks.
and i have make my new year resolution that i will work, really work hard on this year.
no more next week then study!.
no more later will got time!!.
must study everyday everynight!!!.
aiya i say now lah
but....heheheeeeeee
and then i have been writing this since this morning and now its after 1pm, taken my lunch, drank one bottle of lime juice, read one yoai novel and still haven't finished my nonsense.
quite bore at office. job bore pple even more bore. so what to do but surf the net and read yoai novel. so its not my fault its my company fault for creating such boring enviromnment that force me to eat snake.
i am innocent! i am being force to sin!
like this also can me.
muahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
think i should go start work liao. if not those eat full full got nothing to do people will have something to say or complaint.
minnasan sayounara
ki o tsukete
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
kekkon suru
i don't understand some women...
they are like can't live without love/men.
even though they get hurt over and over and over...
even though they fall in and out of love so frequently...
even though they get married then divorce then get married...
still..
they must have a man.
its like without a man by their side then they are incomplete.
they need validation from a man like a drug addict validate their existence through drugs.
the love..
the marriage..
the children...
so called family..
the whole nine yard..
does it all have some kind of meaning?
some hidden purpose that i don't get?
why must people eventually get married?
and for those of us who choose to stay single instead, why must we be immediately being label, last time, as left on the shelf, and nowsaday, gay/lesbian.
its like a sin or worse a disease when you don't get into the trend of falling in love.
people just look at you differently when they learned that you are over thirty and still single.
you can said that its none of other people business whether you choose to get married or stay single but don't why again, there are some people who just like to make it their business to decided for you what kind of people you are depending on your status.
so tire.
talk talk talk, lots of people just like to talk.
people are homosexual, they want to talk.
people go on blog, they want to talk.
survey showing that singaporean are not happy, they talk some more.
everyday must have something to talk about.
nothing to talk they still want to talk.
as if talking about it will solve anything.
bullshit.
monday went to my sis clinic to see doc.
cos of my sore throat and coughing didn't get better after seeing the other doc at the other clinic twice.
the med surprisely really work this time.
at night when i went back took the med for sore throat one and next day when i woke up its really gone.
even the fever was gone.
i was like wow!!!
but don't like the doc.
people want to explain one's illness but he like to cut off like i don't know any better.
a bit frustrating.
and then also while trying to tell him my synptoms my eldest sis walk in to ask the doc something and he like turn to my sis and ask, "how come your sis (me) face is like this"
i was like.....................
come on i was right in front of him.
and i know i know i suffer from ache problem.
and once again i was right in front of him!!!
he could have aske me.
he go ask my sis for wat!
not my sis got ache problem!
its me! its me!
ITS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and to this really even more tire!
i suffer from ache problem ok!
i know that ok!
i am not blind or anything ok!
i can see ok!
but there are always people around me who got to ask and ask and ask and ask!
and to that i want to say....
I GOT WASH MY FACE!
I GOT SEE DOCTOR!!!
I GOT EAT MED!!!
LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF HORRIBLE ANTIBIOTICS!!!
BUT I CAN'T HELP IT IF THE PIMPLES JUST WANT TO VACATE ON MY FACE!!!!!!!
AND DON'T ASK ME WHY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!
ok?
ok!!!!!!
but i don't people just don't care.
sadly.
they will always like to choose to spoilt my day by asking :why yr face like that?
what more do you expect me to say.
i mean, seriously, what more can i SAY...
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Itai desu yo!!!
recently i ask for internal trf.
HR still haven't confirmed yet but the head head already know about it.
yesterday i was on mc and heard that the head head came down personally to see those who asked for trf.
my section got three people.
head head said mine also confirmed already.
i was like....huh???
confirmed??? but i did not heard anything???
weird???
bcos of sore throat fews days weikou not good.
all the food taste so bland.
and last two days i on mc but my sis thought i on leave!
still buy nasi lemak with lot of chilli!!!!
i like i like!!!
but can't eat. sob sob sob :(
also wan to eat lot of junk foods!!!
i miss my junk foods!!!!
why!!!
why!!!
why must hve sore throat!!!!
give me anything but sore throat!!!!!
oh gosh!!!
ok ok enough of that. no matter how i scream and yelled still cannot eat.
recently was reading this BL novel and there was this poem quite nice.
it was called "yi ge kai hua de shu".
"how to get you to meet me, at my most beautiful moment.
for this, i have beg god for five hundred years,
beg him to create a destiny between you and me.
God turn me into a tree, growing where you will passed each days.
beneath the sun, i let my flowers blooms, each flowers carried a pieces of my wishes.
when you get near, please listen carefully,
my passion trasmitted through the trembling leaves!
but, one day should you ever walked passed without noticing me
those that falls behind you my dear friends, are not flower petals
those are pieces of my withered hearts!"
aiya i translate till not nice.
but its quite touching.
try to put on the chinese one but system cannot support turn out weird weird symbols.
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Thursday, November 23, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
linkin park wa doko ni imasu ka
this time really sick already.
fever sore throat body ache nado the whole nine yard.
last night was thinking that since not feeling well then slept early.
so went to bed at 9.30pm.
scully kept waking up to go toilet cos before that drank lot of water.
end up over 11pm then finally fall asleep!
now so tire :(
last sunday after ninhon go shigen went to kino.
end up only bought two manga.
the one that i wan, bleach, don't have.
the rest couldn't remember already bought not.
now that the ninhon go shigen is over, thought that can finally rest first.
then remember that JLPT is just around the corner.
that means go to study study study again!!!
i miss my days of ideling (did i spell correctly?)
!!!
but really have doubt if i could pass.
the test do till ruanqibazhao
oral sick sick don't know wat i am talking about.
dictation got lots of spelling mistakes.
sob sob :(
i have let myself down!!
didn't study hard!! too lacky!!!
but...but...just in case if i pass...
then...
hmmmmmmm
don't know wan to go to next level not....
hai....
the 3 heard me "hai" a lot also cannot tahan
ask me why must i suddenly want to think so much
last time the eat sleep watch tv lifestyle so suit me don't wan
wan go learn ninhon go
end up torturing myself not worth it blah blah blah blah
they nag so much till i got no choice ask sidekick to talk to them
and i mean "gently" talk to them
now suddenly very quiet
must be they...heheheh....
today is monday
still got the rest of the week to slog through
oh no oh no
friday friday where are you friday
why must you be called friday
if you are not called friday
you are still friday
what does it matter if you called anything but friday...
the "3" suddenly appear, knock on my head and said,
"1" : of course its matter that friday is called friday lah
"2" : friday is call friday that means its the last working day of the week
"3" : which means the next day will be saturday no need to work
"2" : if friday not called friday called monday then you got to work work work work..
"1" : yeah lor work work work till die its still monday!!
"3" : no saturday no sunday no tuesday no wednesday no thursday no friday!!!
all "3" : only monday leh!!! ONLY MONDAY LEH!!!!!
suddenly the temperature drop....
icy breeze blowing passed.................
as sudden as they appeared...
the "3" vanished once again...
now you see it....now you don't....
and i was like....
shld have brought out the fan earlier...
you wan to know why...
heheheheeeee
cos "icy breeze" = "sidekick"
hahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Monday, November 20, 2006
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
nihon go no shiken wa itsu desu ka
no fun! no fun at all!!!
quite sometime no go kino to really see see look look.
just now went to chuangyi website and saw that got 11 new manga that i wan.
but still too lazy to go.
my heartless niece don't want to go with me.
my heartless niece deserted me!!!!
she only go out with her friends!!!!!
my heartless ex chong cheng student niece!!!!!!
and then the death note movie is coming.
the manga so blur and confusing.
used to be a good story.
but half way the author become so long winded.
blah blah blah blah..no action but blah blah blah..........
just imagine you read read till the most exciting part and then
suddenly.........
the characters kept talking and talking and talking.....
i can still remember how i really struggle through vol 8...
thought i would never finish....
want to cry while reading vol 8...sooooosooooo long winded.
nothing new happened.
just that jap exam coming.
jcs one and the jlpt one.
and then still haven't begin my revision.
omg!!! so many lessons and yet still haven't start my revision.
don't know tonigt wan go kino not.
11 manga...
but all still havent' finish one...
now like a bit tire don't feel like reading so kept buying and throwing in my book shelf.
don't know my heatless niece wan to go with me not.
but i think she will probably say no.
see told you she is very heartless....
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
watashi wa anata no tomodachi desu ka
Three most important questions in my life :
1) mai asa asa gohan wa nani o tabemasu ka.
2) mai hiru hiru gohan wa nani o tabemasu ka.
3) mai ban ban gohan wa nani o tabemasu ka.
Three most important decision made for my life :
1) stay single.
2) get fat.
3) be useless
Three most important person in my life :
1) me.
2) moi.
3) watashi.
Three most must do things in my life :
1) eat.
2) sleep.
3) watch tv.
The most heartbreaking moment :
LUNCH TIME IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The most detestable moment :
GOT TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Saturday, September 23, 2006
kyou wa douyoubi desu
suppose to start at 1pm but then got problem so now still waiting lor.
don't know wat time will end lor.
and then hor was like you know don't know what to say or should be how to say lor.
this is so crazy lor. lor mee lor. bee hoon lor.
and then hor the big boss hor came in leh!!
he told the other high rank one don't need to come scully hor he came leh!!!
second boss also came lor.
then hor thing thing started so went for the testing then now come back its after 3pm liao
later go orchard with niece
but got two huge bag of thing to carry
she will complaint
i know she will complaint.
muahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
got to wait for confirmation before can go...
still waiting ......
still waiting........................
but will say sayounara first if not the rest of the blog will be
still waiting.....................................................................................
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Saturday, September 23, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
WOWLAO where got like this one!!!
remember the jisho form?
remember the masu form??
remember the nai form???
conclusion : haven't even learn and yesterday....sensei.....introduce another....
te form!!!!!!!!!!!
braindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindeadbraindead
halfway through all the forms, my cousin lean toward me and said, buttock itchy itchy wan learn nihon go, now buttock pain pain liao lah.....
so i kept telling myself, beginning is like this onebeginning is like this onebeginning is like this onebeginning is like this onebeginning is like this onebeginning is like this one
i will survive i will survive yeah yeah....
finally tonight go sakae...finally today the last day of the week...finally finally finally...
die die will leave at roku ji han yo!!!!
sidekick is like walk over and hit my head, SO PAINFUL!!!
the 3 kept laughing
lunch time over liao still play play, you wan to die huh!
so i was like cry cry and then.....
and then....
aiya still and then, sayounara liao lah....
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Friday, September 22, 2006
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
watashi wa nihon go ga sukoshi wakarimasu
stupid antibiotic!!!!
i hate antibiotic!!!!!!!
don't know which stupid person make it till so horrible!!!
always make me feel like throwing up when taking the pills!!
and then must eat eat eat till full full want to throw up then can take!!!
if not......OMG!!!!...why make the pills till so bitter and horrible!!!!!
just now went to the stationary shop to enquiry about that screen screen thing
aunty said should have size for laptop one
but currently they got no stock...
also expensive, abt $50++
think later will go popular c have a not..
if not everytime use the laptop its so bright man..
no matter how i adjusted its still so BRIGHT!!!!
then next day (like now) eyes swollen swollen tire tire...
man think got to dig out the sour plum!!!
wan to throw up!! want to throw up!!!
STUPID ANTIBIOTICS!!!!!
this friday got to meet with tomodachi go sakae
actually don't feel like going sakae, the foods not nice anymore but....
don't know where else to meet...
finally the rest of the gang are all gonna show up...
one of them mama already, scully she said she pregnant again?
since she always like to surprise us...imaging last round pregnant for five months liao still no tell us.
one of them got new bf think think next yr getting married.
the other one resign and found new job.
seem like everytime when we finally can meet, i mean on the rare occassion the four of us can all make it, its like something will happened. change job, change bf blah blah blah...
only me still the same old same old.
still in the same company (10 yrs liao)
still single (31 yrs liao)
still living in the same place (18 yrs liao)
only changes is moved from mum hse to sis hse....
still act like a kid still so unambitious...
and my mum will said "still no go take bank courses!!!"
heheheheeeeeeeeee
can't help lah, who ask me so scare of exam....
and then time up got to work
lah lah lah blah blah blah
sayounara.............
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
kono kotoba no imi wa nan desu ka
last thursday sensei taught jisho form and nai form and masu form....
end up i form till now haven't recovered.
brain dead got stuck...
and then everytime pick up kyoukasho immediately falls asleep.
man!
yesterday took leave thought can study scully the whole day watch da chang jin and cry till eyes swollen swollen like this.
shame on me!!!
i let my mum down!!!!
today came back to work even worst.
so tire feel like sleeping.
want to go kino!!!
i wan to go kino!!!
but everyday so busy at night work till late late!!!
miss my kino!!!
now my tsukue so messy...
paper scatter all around.
most of the time feel like just go home and sleep.
but then one look at my jap jap and .....
never knew that learning a new language can be so difficult.
even though every week for two days look forward to the class but after class like want to die cos cannot fully grap what sensei is saying.
but after revision things will be ok...
scully come this jishou form!!!!
my number one enemy!!!
no more jishou form!! no more!!!!!
next time if i could successfully complete the whole course
when people talk to me
no more "talk to my hand"
that is outdated
i will torture them by saying
"nihon go de hanashite kudasai"
act stuck up like those french.
no talk jap no entertaint!!!
muahahahahaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
ichigo to momo
heheheeeeeeeee
yesterday ninhon go juukyou learn new things!!!
yeah yeah
and then that make me realise my previous "should be right lah" sentence is incorrect.
shld be
watashi wa yuube tomotachi to isshoni sakae de osushi o tamemashita
(last night i ate osushi at sakae together with my friends)
yesterday learn
watashi wa yuube tomotachi to isshoni sake e osushi o tame ni ikimashita.
(last night i went to sakae to eat osushi together with my friends)
so long the sentence, read till my tongue twisted.
this morning on the way was repeating those sentences then realise actually can write a small small short short composition already.
(previously had doubt cos in this JLPT test guide, its stated that level 4 students should be able to speak/write simple sentence construction and i was like BSnot!!! even own school got oral exam!!! die die die!!!)
watashi wa irene desu.
watashi wa shingapooru jin de ginkouin desu.
kotoshi wa sanjuu ichi sai desu.
roku nin kazoku desu. chichi to haha to ane ga futari to ani to watashi desu.
sushi ga todemo suki desu. shikashi takai desu ne.
watashi wa sengetsu tomodachi to isshoni sakae de osushi o tamemashita.
taihen taka ku de amari oishi ku arimasen.
maiban juu ji goro nemasu. tokidoki juuni ji nemasu.
maiasa roku ji han okimasu. sorekara shawaa o abimasu.
maiasa asa gohan pan o tabemasu. koohii o nomimasu.
uchi kara kaisha made ichi ji kan gurai kakarimasu.
shigoto wa ku ji kara roku ji han made desu.
shichi ji han ni uchi e kaerimasu. tokidoki hachi ji han goro uchi e kaerimasu.
watashi no nihon go no jukyou wa kayoubi to mokuyoubi de jikan wa shichi ji ni juu pun kara ku ji han made desu.
ninhon go no benkyou wa muzukashii desu. shikashi omoshiroi desu.
muahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i succeeded!!!! short short small small composition!!!!
but now hiruyasumi almost over so must start to work hard.
before i go.....
minnasan ishhoni itte kudasai : SAYOUNARA!!!!
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Monday, September 11, 2006
hiruyasumi
ima wa watashi no hiruyasumi desu
men ryouri o tabemasu
mizu o nomimasu
and that's it.....
recently went for jap lesson.
still struggling. now at lesson 6 and only study till lesson 4.
too lazy. everytime pick up kyoukashou and the next minute falls asleep already...
last sunday was studying in my room when my mum came in.
never told her i was taking jap.
cos she would nag at me to take bank courses which i have been trying my best NOT to take for the past ten years!
scully she saw my nihon go no kyoukashou
and she said "y didn't u..."
i was like "ohoh here its goes! she gonna nag nag nag i waste $$$"
but she surprise me by saying
"y didn't u go take korea. its good to know more language. should learn more"
i was like...mouth big big and in shock!
i mean for someone so reality and measure everything in $$$ to said that is truly a miracle.
now the problem is that, with her rare encouragment, i am like die die must stick to the course and finish the rest of the painful five years!!!
so near yet so far!!!
everyweek feel like giving up
but ...
now...
my mum know i taking jap!!!! how can i give up!!!
hahaha
at least now i can tell myself that beside the beginning :watashi wa ..... desu"
can say something more deep like
watashi wa yuube tomotachi to isshoni sakae osushi o tabemashita..
(i think should be right.......i think lah....)
btw my niece (who recently obsessed with arisu kyu ban) help me create this blog
i only in charge of coming in to type something
and then forgot where to go change my profile.
last night watch the korea drama "Gon"
quite cute the characters and quite interesting the storyline.
but pple who watched it all told me its boring.
m typing this in my kaisha
so must fast hand fast leg tpye cos down here no privacy
everything do got broadcast.
next time got time then write some more...
sayounara....
I am the toast that filled yr belly
I am the coffee that moist yr lips
I am the smelly gas you passed, through the intimacy of yr asshole
shunned by 3rd parties who pinched their noses i vaporised
but not before you shouted
I LOVE YOU SMELLY GAS!!!
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Monday, September 11, 2006
