Wednesday, November 29, 2006
kekkon suru
i don't understand some women...
they are like can't live without love/men.
even though they get hurt over and over and over...
even though they fall in and out of love so frequently...
even though they get married then divorce then get married...
still..
they must have a man.
its like without a man by their side then they are incomplete.
they need validation from a man like a drug addict validate their existence through drugs.
the love..
the marriage..
the children...
so called family..
the whole nine yard..
does it all have some kind of meaning?
some hidden purpose that i don't get?
why must people eventually get married?
and for those of us who choose to stay single instead, why must we be immediately being label, last time, as left on the shelf, and nowsaday, gay/lesbian.
its like a sin or worse a disease when you don't get into the trend of falling in love.
people just look at you differently when they learned that you are over thirty and still single.
you can said that its none of other people business whether you choose to get married or stay single but don't why again, there are some people who just like to make it their business to decided for you what kind of people you are depending on your status.
so tire.
talk talk talk, lots of people just like to talk.
people are homosexual, they want to talk.
people go on blog, they want to talk.
survey showing that singaporean are not happy, they talk some more.
everyday must have something to talk about.
nothing to talk they still want to talk.
as if talking about it will solve anything.
bullshit.
monday went to my sis clinic to see doc.
cos of my sore throat and coughing didn't get better after seeing the other doc at the other clinic twice.
the med surprisely really work this time.
at night when i went back took the med for sore throat one and next day when i woke up its really gone.
even the fever was gone.
i was like wow!!!
but don't like the doc.
people want to explain one's illness but he like to cut off like i don't know any better.
a bit frustrating.
and then also while trying to tell him my synptoms my eldest sis walk in to ask the doc something and he like turn to my sis and ask, "how come your sis (me) face is like this"
i was like.....................
come on i was right in front of him.
and i know i know i suffer from ache problem.
and once again i was right in front of him!!!
he could have aske me.
he go ask my sis for wat!
not my sis got ache problem!
its me! its me!
ITS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and to this really even more tire!
i suffer from ache problem ok!
i know that ok!
i am not blind or anything ok!
i can see ok!
but there are always people around me who got to ask and ask and ask and ask!
and to that i want to say....
I GOT WASH MY FACE!
I GOT SEE DOCTOR!!!
I GOT EAT MED!!!
LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF HORRIBLE ANTIBIOTICS!!!
BUT I CAN'T HELP IT IF THE PIMPLES JUST WANT TO VACATE ON MY FACE!!!!!!!
AND DON'T ASK ME WHY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!
ok?
ok!!!!!!
but i don't people just don't care.
sadly.
they will always like to choose to spoilt my day by asking :why yr face like that?
what more do you expect me to say.
i mean, seriously, what more can i SAY...
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Itai desu yo!!!
recently i ask for internal trf.
HR still haven't confirmed yet but the head head already know about it.
yesterday i was on mc and heard that the head head came down personally to see those who asked for trf.
my section got three people.
head head said mine also confirmed already.
i was like....huh???
confirmed??? but i did not heard anything???
weird???
bcos of sore throat fews days weikou not good.
all the food taste so bland.
and last two days i on mc but my sis thought i on leave!
still buy nasi lemak with lot of chilli!!!!
i like i like!!!
but can't eat. sob sob sob :(
also wan to eat lot of junk foods!!!
i miss my junk foods!!!!
why!!!
why!!!
why must hve sore throat!!!!
give me anything but sore throat!!!!!
oh gosh!!!
ok ok enough of that. no matter how i scream and yelled still cannot eat.
recently was reading this BL novel and there was this poem quite nice.
it was called "yi ge kai hua de shu".
"how to get you to meet me, at my most beautiful moment.
for this, i have beg god for five hundred years,
beg him to create a destiny between you and me.
God turn me into a tree, growing where you will passed each days.
beneath the sun, i let my flowers blooms, each flowers carried a pieces of my wishes.
when you get near, please listen carefully,
my passion trasmitted through the trembling leaves!
but, one day should you ever walked passed without noticing me
those that falls behind you my dear friends, are not flower petals
those are pieces of my withered hearts!"
aiya i translate till not nice.
but its quite touching.
try to put on the chinese one but system cannot support turn out weird weird symbols.
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Thursday, November 23, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
linkin park wa doko ni imasu ka
this time really sick already.
fever sore throat body ache nado the whole nine yard.
last night was thinking that since not feeling well then slept early.
so went to bed at 9.30pm.
scully kept waking up to go toilet cos before that drank lot of water.
end up over 11pm then finally fall asleep!
now so tire :(
last sunday after ninhon go shigen went to kino.
end up only bought two manga.
the one that i wan, bleach, don't have.
the rest couldn't remember already bought not.
now that the ninhon go shigen is over, thought that can finally rest first.
then remember that JLPT is just around the corner.
that means go to study study study again!!!
i miss my days of ideling (did i spell correctly?)
!!!
but really have doubt if i could pass.
the test do till ruanqibazhao
oral sick sick don't know wat i am talking about.
dictation got lots of spelling mistakes.
sob sob :(
i have let myself down!!
didn't study hard!! too lacky!!!
but...but...just in case if i pass...
then...
hmmmmmmm
don't know wan to go to next level not....
hai....
the 3 heard me "hai" a lot also cannot tahan
ask me why must i suddenly want to think so much
last time the eat sleep watch tv lifestyle so suit me don't wan
wan go learn ninhon go
end up torturing myself not worth it blah blah blah blah
they nag so much till i got no choice ask sidekick to talk to them
and i mean "gently" talk to them
now suddenly very quiet
must be they...heheheh....
today is monday
still got the rest of the week to slog through
oh no oh no
friday friday where are you friday
why must you be called friday
if you are not called friday
you are still friday
what does it matter if you called anything but friday...
the "3" suddenly appear, knock on my head and said,
"1" : of course its matter that friday is called friday lah
"2" : friday is call friday that means its the last working day of the week
"3" : which means the next day will be saturday no need to work
"2" : if friday not called friday called monday then you got to work work work work..
"1" : yeah lor work work work till die its still monday!!
"3" : no saturday no sunday no tuesday no wednesday no thursday no friday!!!
all "3" : only monday leh!!! ONLY MONDAY LEH!!!!!
suddenly the temperature drop....
icy breeze blowing passed.................
as sudden as they appeared...
the "3" vanished once again...
now you see it....now you don't....
and i was like....
shld have brought out the fan earlier...
you wan to know why...
heheheheeeee
cos "icy breeze" = "sidekick"
hahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Painappuru was brutally tortured... brutally murdered... on Monday, November 20, 2006
